We are Dossier To China (DTC) today!!!
I have such mixed emotions. I'm very happy, of course. All those months of work are over. All the stress of paper chasing is behind me. Whew!! Yet, when I was doing that work I had a purpose and a goal. Now... we wait. We wait to be matched with our daughter which will most likely be many months. Of course, I have lots of little ones and a hardworking husband to occupy my time and energy. But this process is very much a hurry up and wait process and that's not how I typically conduct my life. God is stretching me big time through this walk. I have finally submitted myself to the long wait and to God's timeline.
I tried to rush it by searching out our daughter through advocacy groups, blogs and other sites. My true peace comes, though, when I relinquish the control and leave it up to our agency to match us. I know that is the right path. I know that is the path that will lead us to our daughter. I've just been operating in rush mode for the last 5 months. It took me a few weeks to transition to where I am now.
It doesn't mean that I probably won't slip every once in a while and get impatient. I will take it to the Lord when that happens and rely on the Holy Spirit to bring the peace and patience that I cannot muster up in my own strength.
Well, now on to fundraising... : )