I am anxious for that first meeting and how Isabel will react.
I am saddened knowing that her whole world as she knows it will be taken from her and she will surely grieve over the subsequent days and weeks.
I am elated to finally hold her in my arms to hug her and kiss her and love her as only a mommy can.
And, finally, I am nervous about the funds that are still needed to bring her home. During one of my recent quite times with the Lord, I shared with Him what He already knew I was struggling with. What if we don't raise all the money? What CAN we do? Not bringing Isabel home is not an option, so... what do we do God? And as those thoughts were runny through my mind, a very loud, dominating voice came into my head, "You will have it when you need it." But, we're so close God. Again, "You will have it when you need it." Ok, God. I trust you. Now, my head still struggles with what my heart knows from God's reassuring voice. I still find myself racking my brain at how we can get those final funds, but then I repeat the words I heard so clearly...
YOU WILL HAVE IT WHEN YOU NEED IT.
Because God owns this adoption. He has weaved an amazing story already in the ways He has timed paperwork, brought specialized doctors and turned hearts towards this amazing little girl. He will continue to move hearts to give joyfully knowing they have a hand in bringing a child into a loving family.
Yes, God, we will have it when we need it and I thank you in advance that you allow us the privilege to witness your great works.